24 years? Holy crap. So happy for you two, that’s really nice 🩷

I guess I still have a long way to go 😭.
But I’m not giving up easily 😄

Wishing you two all the happiness in the world, now and into the future 💜

No guarantees, but you could find a trans girl on prog…

You might be pleasantly surprised 😆

(Please for the love of god, whatever you do, don’t engage in chaser behavior)

Im guessing you mean in the opposite role during sex? Not the one I’m in? 🤣

But…I really love this one. He’s cute and I don’t mind giving my heart and body to him. The only problem is, I’m gonna suck him dry soon…he won’t survive another year with me 😭

Despite my sometimes slutty nature, I’m actually quite faithful. Or at least, that’s what I’d like to think 😆

I feel you 🫂.

I would’ve been a fucking problem as a cis girl

Saame. With cis-me, there would have been no men left around for anyone 😂. All mine 😜

Born to be a slut, sleep with as many people as possible and treat my body count like a high score…
Cursed with a body that makes that really difficult, if not impossible 😔

So, I settled down with someone who loves me (and who I love dearly) and I’m sticking to that 🩷

I still do think about it tho…
What could have been. How glorious my slut phase would have been, had I been born cis. How many male partners I could have had fun with (at once).
Oh well… Maybe in my next life.

it’s not too late for them though, and I’ll make sure to support them whether they turn out to be a tomboy or trans man

You seem like a good person. I trust you to support them as best you can.

However, your look, front and back, is making anyone misgendering you look not just like an asshole but just plain stupid

You haven’t really gotten a good look at me or my body language for that matter. For that reason, I’d like to say it’s not completely black and white like that. Anyway, thank you for your kind words 🩷

I know about my shoulders. I can’t do anything to fix them other than draw attention away from them by dressing well. They’re solid bone. HRT will get rid of lots of muscle mass, but my shoulders are pure bone…
I’ve actually considered getting a clavicle reduction surgery in Vienna, but it’s expensive, risky and my German is spotty at best 😭
If I had the money tho…I’d get all of the surgeries

That’s really interesting…
I really doubt it’s my case, because unfortunately, T puberty had a “normal” effect on my body in a way I can never fix 😔

Nevertheless, thanks for the info. I think I’m just a weirdly-shaped person is all.

stop doubting yourself and listening to the idiots around us screaming about how we can’t possibly exist “but please let me hit”.

I HATE people like that with a passion. Arrogant and thinking they’re entitled to our bodies while also trying to erase our existence…

Obligatory “oh yes, Míša, one of the few classic androgynous names”

Yeah, the short-form of my name, Míša, works for both genders. But you know that, you speak the language 😆

Call me stupid, but I still consider it a feminine name. And if someone calls me that and then uses the wrong pronouns…it gives me the ick beyond belief. My grandma does that unfortunately 😔

It’s my fault really, for choosing a 4 syllable name 😭. But I’m actually really happy with it 😄

Hey! Rude. I do finish my projects.
In fact, I’ll go work on my Rust music player right now!

starts a brand new, unrelated project

Lol 😂

I’m sure someone would pay for these. However, I’d hate to do that to my bf. Honestly, just posting these pics makes me feel iffy…

Probably a mistake. I just wanted some constructive feedback on my shape tho, and that’s exactly what I got

Edit: obligatory “Hello fellow Czech person” 👋

Oh. I’m sorry to hear about the barrel chest.

Hey, an illusion is better than nothing! I think it’s way better than having a super masculine figure. If that makes sense?

What I have going on is also an illusion, anyway. Move your head slightly and it’s broken. And besides, I bet you’re really pretty! 🩷

I almost never put my hair up for that reason either, even when I’m working and it’s over 100°F outside

I feel this so much and I hate we have to go through this 🫂

I am extremely proud of where I currently am now, and what is still left to attain

I think that’s the best possible mindset, given our circumstances. I’m glad ❤️.

Thank you for sharing with me. I believe we can all reach our goals, someday.

Wait, so my ass passes? How tf does my body pass more than my face? 😭
That’s like something out of a movie or manga.

I have to say, when I wear my jorts and red top, which reveal much more of my figure than anything else I wear, I feel vulnerable, sure, but also really good. Like, I’ll look at my shadow on the wall and be confused.
That me? OwO
That’s a girl

Thanks for the compliments. Sorry for still complaining despite having a feminine-ish figure. I’m just extremely insecure 😓

Cily…thank you. I got your messages yesterday during the worst of it and they made me feel a lot better 🫂.

Have you considered that your inability to see your features as feminine is caused by internalized transphobia?

Yes. I know that’s at least part of the reason. I have a ton of internalized transphobia…
I try not to let it out too much and I definitely don’t direct it at other trans women…but instead I direct all of it at myself.

About my hair…on my birthday, in April, I actually did get a feminine haircut. I got curtain bangs. They look really nice, however I still tuck my hair behind my ears. And unfortunately, I have a legitimate reason for that…

I have really bad temporal recession. Not pattern baldness, but I think it’s just the way my hairline naturally is (Screw you T! And…dad?? I guess?).

Keeping it behind my ears keeps my forehead from showing through my hair…which makes me dangerously dysphoric. Going outside, having the wind blow my hair away…it feels good. To have it that long…
But at the same time…my forehead sticking out of my hair…
That honestly just makes me want to cut it all off and cry myself to sleep (which wouldn’t help me at all).

Having it longer only highlights this problem for me. And it’s a problem I really should solve. I’ve only ever learned how to tie it up in a low ponytail. This uncovers more of my face and ruins even the tiniest chances of passing.

I need to learn how to put my hair up in a more feminine fashion. I’m totally falling behind…

Lastly, I think attitude, confidence, and posture signal femininity

Yess. That’s also a problem I really need to solve. Confidence is NOT something I have, at all unfortunately. I know the importance of attitude and body language. It’s just really hard to unlearn some things after 19 years…

Lastly lastly, I started girlmoding far away from where I lived

This is really good advice and something I’ve thought about a lot. When me and my bf visit Prague, where people are more liberal anyway, I pack only girl clothes and wear those. It’s a really neat little trick, to girlmode in front of people you’ll never see again.

Thank you. This does honestly help. You’re so nice Cily 😭
Thank you for caring 🩷

I’m sorry. Thanks for being so kind, but I just don’t see it…

My hips aren’t what I thought they were. I was corrected as to what my hips actually are. They aren’t that wide.

Also, this is self-deprecating, but something about the overall shape just screams MAN at me. It’s the subtle details, the really small ones. And to top it off, my skin sucks because I don’t take care of it.

I’m sorry. I just really don’t see it the same way

It’s the angle, I swear 😭

It’s all an illusion. I don’t look like this, I temporarily altered my appearance for a photo. Nothing more

Holy shit, I just checked your profile. You are built better than I am! You’re honestly so pretty 🩷

Yeah, my shoulders are definitely wider than my hips. I went through T puberty, unfortunately 😔

Definitely have a long torso too. That adds to the illusion.

You’re actually built a lot like I am

That’s interesting. Well, I hope you’re built better than me. My body is freaking weird, honestly 😭

Thanks for the butt compliment tho 😆

Might have been the prog, might not have. Was fun tho 🤭